Saturday

Today is the Outdoor Show at the TRAC in Pasco. It has been a tradition for us to go and for the kids to all catch a fish in the fish pond. We were looking forward to it this morning but Ethan woke up with a fever. Everyone else was feeling fine, so Rod took Bailey, Ben & Emma and I stayed home with the sickie. We spent the day in our pjs, just lounging. Several times he crawled up on my lap and just let me cuddle him. It was a good day. I know that before long he will be too grown up to do that. The years already seem to be speeding by entirely too quickly.
I opened my email this morning and found one from Mimi - Julian's Mom. Julian died this morning. I probably held Ethan a little too tight after I read about that. I just can't imagine the total heartbreak their family is going through. Here is a poem she posted:

Fly high…

Fly high, lil man,
The sun and you are one.
You won’t ever be cold again,

I will always keep my eyes to the skies…
Today, the sunshine was a little warmer,
Tonight, the Milky Way a little brighter.

I feel your hand in mine and your face on my chest.
I feel you looking up at me,
Begging for a kiss.

“Just one more kiss, Mama…
One more dinosaur kiss,
Because I really like you “

Come closer baby, It is ok now,
You are done fighting ,
You are done hurting.

Give me one more smile,
One more silly face,
And one more hug…

You can go, now,you can go,
The boys will be fine,
Daddy and I will love on them for you…

My heart is shattered, baby,
But so much bigger,so full of love…
I will miss you forever…

So for now, Fly high, lil man…
With your brand new wings,
Fly high, all the way to Heaven…


Good night, sweet pea, sleep tight,
Your mama, the lil one...